What I Think When I Do Not Think?

        It is always uncertain and mystic; The feeling of not feeling to do anything is just like my boss, always standing before me from nowhere. And I always thinks “Ab ye kahase aa gaye?”, And moreover he will stick too long, just like my feeling of not feeling. I think ‘why this happens so many time when we have so much to do and we dont know what to do and how to do it or whether we should do it or not’. Now a days this feeling of not feeling has imbibed to me in such a way that it can be described best by that slogan I read on Suresh’s T shirt.


“ My shadow is my graffiti”
which can be told as
“ Not feeling is graffiti of my feeling”

Isn’t it is something interesting and mysterious and confusing. Think what I am going through right now when I don’t feel anything or just feel something that is not felt by anything.
Just don’t get yourself confused because of what I do not feel. Just think about what you are feeling write now rather right now .

This not feeling state was once very well described by Sir Leonardo Da vVnci while writing down in his Famous Notebook , It was like this.....

“Amid the vastness of the things among which we live the existance of nothingness holds the first place the, and its function extends over the things with no existence, and its essence, as regards time, lies precisely between the past and the future, and possesses nothing of the present. This nothingness has the part equal to the whole, and the whole to the part, the divisible to the indivisible; and the product of the sum is the same whether we divide or multiply, and in addition as in subtraction; as is proved by arithmeticians by their tenth figure which represents zero; and its power has not extension among the things of nature. ”
Now i know it is quite impossible to tell that what on the earth he was trying to say, but I sensed some not feeling in that.
Whether this not feeling is something similar to Non sense?

I would say ‘No’ until you make out something from it. For example something like this document.

On other hand NON SENSE also has great hidden potential in it which was timely underestimated and neglected. Like, Nonsense always has some sense in it, at least for whom who does that. Doing nonsense means not thinking about what others are thinking or may think about you . It needs a great courage to stand against the world and face it alone. Doing nonsense always bless you with the smile that a child carry on his face. Doing nonsense always allow you to laugh on you. Doing nonsense always gives you a satisfaction that at least you are doing something. Its this Non-Sense only which itself contain Sense which is Not visible by others. Doing Nonsense is those who do not have a second hand thinking. Like who wear something that others will appreciate. Who drive some vehicle which others will value. Who So something that other will proud of. So when they will live for themselves? And how can they live for themselves while they are using other brain to think about what they do. Yes Non-Sense gives that opportunity to think and act on your own, For you and you only. That’s the gift that nonsense Gives.

So on this ground Nonsense offers a lot than Not feelingness, But this Not feelingness cannot be underestimated,

As sometimes this not feelingness only give birth to Nonsense. As In case of this Document. Because sometimes When you are in a state of not feelingness and you do nothing, The only and quick way to get out of that state is doing nonsense. Doing something that doesn’t really has a sense, which you will be doing just for the sake of doing. Writing such document will also do.

So this is what I do, when I do not do anything.

This is what I think, When I do not think.
This is what I feel, When I do not feel.