The Angry Part of Me

            I am writing this at the time, when I shouldnt be doing anything, or talking to nobody(bahot gusse me hu). I should be in my room sleeping on my bed. Thinking how to dump all the thoughts that are popping up in my head (Yes, I do have one) and have blocked my thoughts path like a citabuldi trafic jam.  Just because of some thought who dont know that its  a one way trafic. u have to go from in to out and not the other way round. I am still confused what I want to write here in this post, hope I will come out with something good at the end.
            This is like one of those tym, When we were playing against Pakistan in 20 20 world cup final and for the last over Dhoni gave ball to jogindar. (What d hell was he thinking that tym.) I had this feeling that tym also, I was thiking jogindar should be the last person he should rely on.
Thank god that match ended on a good note. (I am talking for Indians)
But unfortunatly this thing isnt any match. And I am no Dhonsa, And I dont have anyone named joginder sharma.(Did you really get anything, any relevance in above lines. Just asking cos I didnt.)

             Ohh, blogging is helping. I am cooling down. (not because for office AC I mean) . Traffic is getting smoother. They are now calm, and settling down. Dosent it feel great to have a empty mind, (Even a Dumb mind) Not a thing like thinking of a single thouht. Does the thing called serenity must be feeling like that only. I dont know, just asking. 

          Ok, lets list out the thing I want to do when I feel completely, faltu, umimportent good for nothing felow type.

• Pahele to kisiko bahot dhone ki iccha hoti he. (Koi nai bat nahi sabko yahi lagta hoga) 
• I dont think about cigarates that time. (I directly start smoking them, Ya sometimes I smoke, just dont tell at my home.)
• Call some of my friends, and cut the line without talking about anything.
• Go for the jogging in colony.
• I dont think of icecream that time. (Its a girly thing, Aur vesebhi muze utni khas nahi lagti, Ha koi ladki sath ho to alag baat he.)
• That time sochta hu, kisi friend (i mean ladki friend) ko call karu, karta bhi hu lekin bor hoke rakh deta hu. (Inse aur kya ummeed ki ja sakti he)
• Sunny aur Ghode ko bahoot galiya deta hu, (Sale maj gaye dono)
• sochta hu, sucide kar lu. (Thik he thik, ab bhashan dene ki jarurat nahi he iske liye, Mera pap ka ghada abhi bharna baki he.)
• Phir ye sochke sone chala jata hu ki 'bina piye hi chad gai he.'

         Aur ha blogging ke bare me isliye nahi likha kyonki ye aaj paheli bar aise mood me kar raha hu, cos I am at office. 

        Have you felt this thing like when you are angry 90% of the things, no no 80%, no 70% nop absolutly no, Its only 50% of the things that you have done or said  will be resented afterwards. (May be thats becos agla wala baki kuch sunnane se paheli hi phone rakh dega)
It happens with me, so nind ke bad wala tym, relations sudharneke liye chala jata he, followed by sorry yar mud thik nahi tha kal, I didnt mean that.(Atleast bolna to padega na), You are not like that. Main bongar hu(Ye sabko pata chal gaya hoga ab tak) maf kar de pleae, and  etc.
Accha he jyada ladkiyon se dosti nahi he meri, otherwise I would have included chockolates and icecreames too. (Faltu kharcha), But if its for an oppology for something that I done wrong, Its Ok. No problem with that faltu kharcha.
        Ha, there is one more thing I do, when my mood is switch off and I want to on it ASAP. "How I met your mother, Tom and Jerry, Road runner show, 'Are Ganapat baja na' from Apna sapna Money Money, recently " My dayz with myself" and last but the most effective ' Meri umar ke naujawano from Karz movie"
The uniqueness of the song and the thing why I like that song and why its elevate my mood is the feeling  that ' I am better dancer than Rishi Kapoor" (Atleast I wont run on the stage, Thanks to Ganapati Bappa)
        So here is a good thing to let you know, I am no more in that Amitab's Angry young man frame of mind' (You must have guessed it from my panchats).
       
Ek accha joke yad aaya gusse wali bat se (Courtesy 'Fucat'),

Dad to his son: Beta when I beat you, how do you control your anger?
Son : I start cleaning toilet.
Dad: But how does it satisfy your anger.

Son: Actually I use your Tooth brush to do that.

he he he he he. (I wont be surprised if u say that , the last joke was the only best thing I wrote on this post)
Till then Tatas and Vedantas, (Bhagwan bachaye tumhe meri panchatose)