Complications

Its been my whole life(till this morning) that I have been thinking and more or less frequently asking a lot about Who am I? What am I? and Why am I here? and finally came to the conclusion that its futile, just the waste of my unproductive time. I felt very dejected and started to despise myself for not being able to solve this riddle. I call it a riddle as my behavior was very confusing and all great riddles are also very confusing. I started to read books, poems, blogs, Play games (Mostly outdoor games and table tenis) and it brought a very good utilization of my unproductive time. This unproductive time majorly included time at CCR in L. A.,monthly operation review presentation and soft skill training programs organized by my company, And minor part of time in colony. But all this couldn’t help me to get answers for those questions. So I started thinking weather I am asking the right questions? And I rephrased each one of it. And then started thinking on and asking that Who I am? What I am and Why I am here? But this also didn’t help.

Mean time, now more frequently than that previous slot of my life I started to study for GMAT, Got very consistent in starting it. I was very happy that I finally found consistency in my inconsistency. But the major problem used to arise when I was due to start my studies again. Again that filling of dejection and all those synonyms used to haunt me. I was not happy in-spite of the handsome bulk of money that I used get from my employer, all my friends studying in MBA, All my relative happy about my success. (I still don’t know what definition of success is there?)All these things were not expression of my ability, capability, talent, gift, dexterity and all other synonyms. So I urged to find out that expression. I tried many faces in front of mirror but none matches it. And I end up writing another good for nothing poem titled “Whether I see mirror or mirror see me.”

I started sharing my feeling of dejection and all its synonyms with my friends, asked them for help. One suggested Yoga, other suggested meditation, one other suggested  books and other one suggested  Movies but nothing helped. Then one of the greatest friend of mine from his own tested philosophy suggested having a Girlfriend. I thought this is new, let’s try it out. So I started trying it out.

It was very tricky job, I mean being in place like I was in, how was I going to get it? And true to my belief that “ Sher kabhi ghas nahi khata!” I too was not ready for getting anything that comes along. And I thought I should wait.

Then, whether I got girlfriend or girlfriend got me? How did I do that or How did she do that? All these questions are immaterial;the moral of that trying story is the learning that I got from it. And few of those are as follows.

•     If at all you want to be in a relationship with a normal girl(I would suggest not too), Learn three words that you will have to use mostest frequently,And those are “I am Sorry!” And practice this in a being sorry tone.
•     If she says that she loves you, it does not at all mean that she loves you. It can be love, like for a friend boy and not for a boyfriend. So whenever you come across this sentence, without further delay get it confirmed.
•    They like chocolates a lot. (that’s too obvious)
•     If she says that she is mad at you, It means that she wants you to confront her with the mistake you have made.
•    If she says that promise me that you wont leave me alone like others, It means that only you are obliged to this pact and not her. 
• Never ask her while signing above pact that how many were there. 
•    If she ask you that how does she looks, remember weather a truth or lie it should always be in her favor. 
• Always hit 'like' button for whatever she posts on Facebook.
•    You can always stare at other beautiful girl while she is around but remember to loathe them for the clothes or style.
•   Remember to maintain a stock of chocolates at your refrigerator; it will come handy to say sorry.
•  Whenever she says I love you, you have to reply with I love you and not with hmm, ha, ok. And if you say I love you, it’s not necessary that she should reply.
•   If she say that she don’t want to talk, never ever cut the line, you will only get scolded and come to know that its the time to use those mostest frequently used words.
• And always remember that she is a GIRL, and its only your duty to support her whenever she needs  and not hers.   
• Bottom line: SHE IS NEVER WRONG.
• Even if because of her own doing, something goes wrong, It’s your and only your duty to say sorry for that.
•  If sometimes you think and know that she is wrong, Just remember the Bottom line.

         I must have left some or many of the facts about my learning in the trying out thing, But you know as I had said earlier, there are three main changes that we feel when we grow up. First of it is we start to forget things. Second is   hmmm,  hmmm

         I forgot the other two. 

         But it feels good to be back. After experiencing such a heart broken realization about my inability to find out Who I am? What I am and Why I am here? (Even that trying to have a girlfriend thing didn’t help). After so many books, movies, games, parties and  having a So called girlfriend, the truth of it came to me in Bolero, while I was going for office.

The story goes like this, I got a message from Murugan Sir,

2             3             4             15           12

3             4             5             28           20

4             5             6             X             30

5             6             7             66           42

6             7             8             91           56

Find X, only 3 % genius find answer, reply if you can?

          

         So in reason to satisfy my ego, I sat down trying to solve the riddle. I spent about a hour with paper and pen in office, and came out with the answer that X is 45. Seating on the chair, me and my ego were very happy that finally we have got the answer, But the next instant it was flatten by the massage from the Murugan sir. It said…

X is in 3^rd row and 4^th column. I just asked you to find X.

Your answer is also right. But don’t complicate question.

        So this is how its done, all answers are there. We just complicate the questions by thinking more and more, Cos everyone wants to satisfy his/her ego. I too tried to do that.

Now if you are wondering that whether I got the answers for my questions, then I would say, Co-relating to the philosophy of not complicating questions, answers are as follows.

Que: Who I am?

Bongar AKA Pankaj Shrawan Khoke

What I am?

I am The Man.

Why I am here?

Because of my mom and dad.